hi, ho, hi, ho it's back to work I go

Well, I did it. I made it back to work on time and with no tears. I think the practice days really did help. I wasn't stressed out going back. I think part of that was do to the fact that it all seemed overwhelming so there was no one thing to stress about, it was all stressful! ha!
Seriously though, I was worried about leaving Emery and that was a little hard, but I tricked my mind into thinking he was still in his little crib with daddy b/c that's where I saw them last before I got in the car. Blake was good enough to take him to daycare today and he'll even do it tomorrow.
The day flew by and before I knew it, it was lunch. I had forgotten to pump in the am during my little 20 minute break b/c I was so busy being exhausted! I did have time to pump at lunch and I dropped the fresh milk off at daycare for him tomorrow. So far: no dipping into our frozen supply. Yippee!!!
Overall, the whole day seemed surreal. Like a step back into my previous life. I didn't feel like myself completely. It wasn't a bad feeling at all, just a weird one. I don't think being back will be too bad after all. I keep telling myself we have a ton of days off in February, a whole week in March and then I'm out at the end of May! It'll go by quickly. I hope...
PS-Update on the PPD: I had a follow up with the doc yesterday and I said that other than some intense dreams (some violent) all was well. She seemed moderately concerned about the dreams, but said if they bother me then I can try another anti-depressant. I'm not really stoked about that since I'm breastfeeding and from what I read, my choices are limited. I feel great and I have full energy back, so I say leave well enough alone.
Here's praying for a snow day tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed!